Beautiful Mess

The time I spend with you I treasure
Your smile I hold dear
Your laugh brightens my day
that's why I need you here

Your arms hold me tight
You care about my thoughts
You make sure I'm okay
and hug me if I'm not

He loves me not, he loves me
Is what I seem to ponder
Is it possible? Could it be?
Does he even wonder?

What a beautiful mess this is
there's nothing else I'd rather do
don't stop driving me crazy
I just want to be with you

In the Making

Those two words "I'm fine"
cover up all feelings inside.
They stop all questions
and block out suggestions.
You start to believe it,
that you're truly fine
and can dismiss the harsh decline.
You fool yourself
and think you can move on.
You tell yourself that you are strong.
You're still in my head,
the feelings aren't dead.
Why am I like this?
Why can't I fight this?
Why do I still hope?
Why can't I just cope
with the fact that it wont happen.
But its so hard to imagine
someone who can take my affection
and still have our type of connection.
God I'm praying for the right one
but my heart is still undone.
Help me Lord to hold tight
and trust you have the right
one for me waiting,
standing firm and constantly praying
for a beautiful wife ... who's in the making

Summer Thing

Every summer has a story
of fun, romance and a journey.
It leaves sand in your hair
and memories in your heart
and you meet people who become a huge part
as if they were there from the start.

From turtles on beaches
to late night kisses
thinking about it makes me sick
because the butterflies just wont sit

What movie are we watching? I don't even know.
I'm lost in your blue eyes that show
all the times your hearts been broken
I wish I can make those words unspoken

You care so much, I know you do
and I think I feel the same way too
I hope that this thing will continue to last
and it's not just a summer thing that'll pass

but either way, I have to say
Summer '14, you've been good to me

I Can't Save Them

God I see all their hurt and pain
they go through so much its insane
I want to save them from their hell
and give them water from the well.
You can lead a horse but you can't make it drink
but God! I can't let them sink!
You're not doing your job! They're not going to heaven!
I'll do it all then, I will just save them!

It's not working!
They're still suffering!
I tried to make their lives worth living.
God where are you? Why aren't you helping?
Their lives are like flowers, dying, wilting.
What do I do? What do I say?
To make them love you the way
I know that they were made to.
That's something only you can do.

Who am I to play God?
It just makes me a fraud.
So I give this one to you
and hope you can forgive me too.
For I am no better but you still love me.

Oh! I got it! That's what they need to see
Just how much you love them, that's the key!

Harmony

Watch the birds fly by the sea
Able to watch the sunrise
I wish that could be me
Wings spread in the beautiful sky

Its sweet songs
A melody of the morning
one, two, three birds sing
making a beautiful harmony

They represent peace
and all things lovely
If only that was us
on this crazy journey

Love is the expression of harmony in life
when two or more things come together
their differences rise above
and unite beautifully forever

Pinocchio's my brother

Lord my dreams are nothing without you
They're merely just thoughts in my head
Everyday I strive for them to come true
but on my own they're just dormant, dead

I get selfish, determined and stubborn
and strive to do things on my own
Try to prove that I'm worth something more
then the little girl you've known

I get up on my high horse
When one thing goes my way
"Who needs a Geppetto?"
That's child's play

I am the one who worked so hard
I am the one who did it all
I am the one who will get the glory
I am the one who cannot fall

This is when things come apart
and we ask God "Why my frail heart?"
When we've done nothing but good things
but its him who controls the strings

We are exactly how God wants us to be
and he knows of our journey
He'll let us be a real boy
As long as we give him the glory.

Pulverize Men's Sanity

Here we go again
My emotions making me love you
Taking me to places
I know could never come true

You don't love me like that
I know that too
but stupid emotions
they do what they do

I say I don't but I think 'I do'
but I can't say that
I'll lose you too

I won't say a word
I'll keep it to myself
Saying I'm fine
and nothing else

You're my friend
I'll leave it at that
not thinking about it too much
so feelings can't come back

Don't dig too deep
Remember I'm still a female
We change our last names
before its even legal

Trust me when I say
I'm not hurt
Its just a few days a month
no need for alert

If I could change one thing
it would definitely be
oh the bloody hell,
the once a month insanity