Monday, March 30, 2015

Training


          I watched this movie recently called Divergent and it was about this girl who is different from everyone else because she fits into all the factions, she has the power and ability to do so. In part of the movie she is put into a simulator that makes her believe she is facing her biggest fears. Since she is divergent she passes very quickly. She is able to remove herself from this very real situation by reminding herself it isn't real.
         While I was reading this book called "Lies Young Women Believe" by Nancy Demoss and Dannah Gresh, it made me think of this scene. Tris realized not long into the test that is was fake, it was a lie. It's the same thing when it comes to the enemy's lies; we have to realize and recognize the them. Continue to remind ourselves it's a lie, like Tris, when she said "This isn't real." Once we've realized it we have to remove ourselves, the same way Tris removed herself by getting into the water or by tapping on the glass. She chose to not believe the simulation (the lie). In the book, the progression of lies go: Listening, dwelling, believing and acting. It's the same to get out of a lie. Realize what you are hearing is a lie, dwell on the fact that it's untrue ("This isn't real"), believe in the truth, and act on it, remove yourself from the lie.
 
As Christians we are divergent!




Wednesday, March 25, 2015

Addiction to Sadness

What do you do
when you can't do anything?
What do you say
when they're not listening?
How do you save those
who want to stay lost?
Addiction to drugs
Addiction to lust
What about the addiction undiscussed?

The addiction to sadness
The thought that there's nothing better,
That you can't become greater
That you like this hell you're in
and its easier to rot
than to repent for your sin.

You like it
The way you feel
That God is gone
and hope isn't real

I've been down that road.
God, I loved it.
I loved that feeling of not even trying
that there was no reason for even living.
The thought that I was nothing
not worth a single penny
It was easier to deny I was loved
than to walk up the hill
holding my cross
and seeing his blood

I wasn't worth it
He shouldn't have gone through that pain
I'm a screw up and he shouldn't know my name
God, no! You can't love me!
I can't return the favor, I'm just nothing!
Please leave me alone to die,
to enjoy this darkness I am inside.

Stop God! Stop loving me!
I can't handle the guilt following
I'm not worth it
I have no purpose
Please just let me be useless

I'm telling you I know this feeling
It's the devil yelling and screaming
He's filling you with lies
He wants your heart to die
He can't let you live
He knows you'll survive
You have to kill those thoughts,
those demons inside.

God loves you, just you.
Not your works
Not your words
Just accept his love
his merciful, powerful love
Its the most beautiful thing you'll ever know
Please! Please don't give up hope.

Monday, March 16, 2015

2 Corinthains 7

            I was reading today in 2 Corinthians 7 and at first I didn’t receive anything, it was when I read it in the message bible that It really hit me.
Paul is writing to the church explaining to them how much pride and joy he has in them. Titus had just came from the church and was so thrilled with how they treated him. Paul was overjoyed and no longer felt bad for calling them out, because the outcome from it was so great.
“Distress that drives us back to God does that, it turns us around. It gets us back in the way of salvation. We never regret that kind of pain. But those who let distress drive them away from God are full of regrets, end up on a deathbed of regrets” (The Message Bible, 2 Cor. 7.10).
I love this next part (vs.11). It says because of this distress, sorrow, and regret we end up closer to God. Not only that, we are (I am) more:
  • Alive
  • Concerned
  • Sensitive
  • Reverent
  • Human
  • Passionate
  • Responsible
  • Pure in Heart
These all come with being closer to God. Paul was thrilled to see how titus reacted to the church. “ I couldn’t be more pleased, I am so confident and proud of you” (The Message Bible, 2 Cor. 7.16).
            In my words, you have to take your sorrow, pain, regret and distress and let it fuel you to drive back to God, to get closer to him. Then take joy because the outcome is great. Looking back at everything I’ve been through throughout high school and even up to my first year of college. I am so excited to be coming back to God. Though what I’ve been through was tough and I still deal with the regrets, I’m letting it drive me closer to God and I couldn’t be more joyful.