It's Not Me Its You!

If you say anything It better be sorry.
If you get the guts to speak you better worry
about losing the friend you said cared the most
because all you do is sit there and boast
as if its you that brings the water to the coast.
You treat me like nothing more than a wingman.
You only call me when you need a friend.

What about me?
Are you even listening?
You ask me for advice but never take it!
You turn it back on me as if I'm mistaken!

Later you'll see where I was going
with all the things that I was sowing
into your life to help you out
even though you just shut me down.

I hope you miss me when I'm gone
and see the things that you've done wrong.
If you don't, I'm saying so long
because that makes this my swan song.

Friends

I'm a freak of nature I'm not like others.
I'm full of emotion sometimes it smothers.
I'm terrified of others thinking I'm a freak.
If anyone found out I'd be a runt, weak.
This is why I'm shy, quiet and don't speak.
I want to run away, go to a new town
Because I'm afraid of one thing, that I'll shut down,
Lose track focus and can't be found.
I think that's what I want just to be lost.
To start over, be normal, but is it worth the cost
Of losing my friends, they cant just be tossed.
They're everything the world to me.
They're always there to help me see
Who I really am and what I can be.
Thank you Lord for giving me the best
The ones that are there to help me past this test.

Mirror

When I look in the mirror I see someone totally new
Someone who's sacred and doesn't know what to do
When I look in the mirror I see a face stained with tears
And what she doesn't realize is she's completely influenced by her peers
When I look in the mirror I see someone ashamed
Of how she acted and who she became
When I look in the mirror I see someone who wants to run away
Who doesn't care anymore just wants a new day
When I look in the mirror I see someone who tries
Someone who tries, tries, tries, to block all the lies
But really its everything inside that she can't hide from
The Lord is calling her saying my daughter come
I'll erase the pain, the lies even the tears you've cried
Just come to me my daughter, my arms are open wide

Drowning

I'm terribly insecure but I don't let it show 

I hurt myself but I never let you know 

I smile so much you can't tell when it's fake 

The tears are too much they literally make 

Me feel like I'm drowning looking up with no escape

Just stuck at the bottom like an anchor without a chain

 No body can help me I'm just left here in this pain

I'm A Tree and Life's a Storm

The sound of water droplets against the window

A growl of the dark grey clouds above

Flashes of lightning sneaking through the cracks of the blinds

For me can be just as peaceful as a dove

But overnight this peaceful storm has developed into something I can no longer bare

No longer a lullaby but a nightmare

The house rattles and shakes

The yard floods and trees break

Its roots were strong and was planted right

But when life throws you a storm sometimes we lose the fight

 

 

A Selfish Love

Taking in the sunset,

what I look forward to at the close of day.

I see its spectrum, all the colors it displays

and a fondness has slowly made its way but

'Motions continue to drown ships and

take them down without sirens.

Oh how I wish I could take one ray and

 lock it in my heart and never let it stray.

Time is the killer of this flame and

 if you wait too long it is gone again.

Her desire to capture this delight

 is of a selfish nature.

You need to let night fall and 

be the sunrise for someone better!